July 31, 2012
13 = my lucky number!
I am grateful that my friend Dominique came to visit and invited me for lunch because the homemade pasta and sauces at Mille Pâtes are delicious and the refreshing breeze on their terrasse was absolutely divine. (sorry, forgot to take a picture of the restaurant)
I am grateful that we went for coffee and dessert at Couleur Café because from their terrasse, we had a beautiful view of the brook.
I am grateful for our friendship because each time we get together, I’m inspired by Dominique’s personal and spiritual journey… and through our conversations, I always end up seeing a little more Light at the end of my tunnel.
I LOVE YOU, DOMINIQUE!
I am grateful that I let Dominique take my picture because I need to stop thinking I’m ugly and start loving my funny face.
THE MAKING OF THE PICTURE: In order for me to quit “posing” and be natural, Dominique said to tell a story and that she would randomly shoot while I blabbed away. So I told her about how when I was a little girl — click! — I wanted to be Shirley Temple — click! — but now I’m glad I’m NOT her — click! — because I’D BE DEAD — click! Out of the 4 pictures she took, this is the true me, leaning in for the punchline. HA!
I am grateful that I actually decided to post the picture here because GET OVER YOURSELF, GIRL!!!
THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!
In Day 13 of her GRATITUDE CHALLENGE, Nicole Cody adds an extra exercise: mindful breathing. So get yourself over there and read all about it.
July 30, 2012
After the dark side of Mudd,
here’s the dreaded Drudd…
So I’m discovering a VERY annoying side of myself. Not that I didn’t know about her already, but as of today, I’m not making any more excuses for her presence in my life.
I am grateful for Rachel Dangermond’s blog post — Where did this gift come from? — because now I have a name for my annoying self: Drudd.
So when I was a kid, my dream was to become a movie star and that didn’t happen because I found myself too ugly. And then when I finished high school, I wanted to go to Art School and become a hippie artist but my parents said it was too expensive and that I should become a secretary.
I am grateful for facing the fact that I’m a frustrated old fart because as of right now, I could shoot and star in my own movie or paint my big masterpiece if I really wanted to — HA!
So I was sexually abused when I was a kid and that robbed me of my self-esteem and made me feel ugly and dirty and has fucked up my relationships with men.
I am grateful for realizing that I’m still blaming the abuse for my life of depression and that I’m still dragging that heavy cloud around because as of right now, I can STOP and find myself beautiful and worthy of love.
So I went from living in big flats with balconies all my life to recently moving into an extra small one without a balcony because I can’t afford anything bigger and better.
I am grateful for facing the fact that I’m a bitter old bippy because as of right now, I can work on getting what I want instead of losing precious energy mulling over what I lost.
So one of my Facebook friends has been asking me a whole lot of questions lately… stirring and shaking me to the point where I thought of telling her to butt out.
I am grateful for that Facebook friend — Mary MacGowan Breckman — because by asking me all those damn questions, she has cracked my shit-lined shell:
Mudd, here is a thought for you. What if you are perfect exactly the way you are? And what if you have exactly the right amount of money for what you need? And what if you are not in a rut? What if you are in a simply lovely quiet place that seems like a rut? What if you have exactly the right amount of energy right now? Who in your life is telling you that you don’t have enough energy? Sounds like there is a negative force in your life!
I have lots to think about, don’t I?
THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!
In Day 12 of her GRATITUDE CHALLENGE, Nicole Cody writes about how we should love our bodies — now there’s something I need to work on, especially the face part of my body.
July 29, 2012
My Lazybones weekend continues
with more photos and tons of gratitude.
I am grateful to work at this table in Vincent’s house because the energy here is invigorating.
I am grateful for the view I have from my work table because when I look to my left, I see Charlie and Layla waiting for me to take a break and come out to play.
I am grateful for the view I have when I look to my right because the abundance of light coming through the windows is so darn beautiful.
I am grateful that my son’s street isn’t paved because dirt roads are much closer to Nature.
And to end this wonderful Lazybones weekend…
I am grateful for how comfortable the mattress is in my son’s guest room because I can’t believe how rested and relaxed I feel — seems like I’ve been here a week.
THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!
In Day 11 of her GRATITUDE CHALLENGE, Nicole Cody explains The Art of Bliss Bombing — be sure to check it out.
July 28, 2012
Inspired by the way resorts offer different packages to their customers, I started giving package names to my stays at my son’s place in La Conception.
The first year, it was the Paint Package — I helped Vincent paint the inside of his house; he has a cathedral ceiling, so he also needed help moving the enormous scaffolding system.
The next year, while Vincent was vacationing in North Carolina, I chose the Lumberjack Package — I wanted to surprise him by clearing his land of all the stuff that was lying around. So I spent 10 days going back and forth with a wheelbarrow, loading the logs from all the trees he had cut down to make way for the house, and then stacking them in neet rows, ready for the fireplace.
The following year, Vincent went to Niagara Falls and I wasn’t supposed to do much as I wasn’t feeling well. But Charlie ended up having a massive case of diarrhea at 2:30 in the morning and to see the shit all over the kitchen floor and around the kitchen island, you would have thought the poor dog had exploded. It took me 4 hours to clean it all up — Charlie and Layla had stepped in it and spread it all the way to the living room. So of course, I called that one the Shit Package.
THIS time, I’m not lifting my little finger except to press the keys on my laptop. Yes, my friends, this is the Lazybones Package!
Continuing the photo shoot I started in Day 9,
here are today’s pics and my share of gratitude:
I am grateful for the PRIVATE BEACH my son and his neighbours have access to because it’s a mere 5-minute walk from his house.
I am grateful for the trail leading to the beach because I love walking through the woods and disturbing the crows who end up flying from tree to tree, cawing like crazy.
I am grateful when I reach the end of the trail because I’m always blown away by the beauty of this hidden paradise. (view from the right)
I am grateful for the peace and quiet I find when I come to this beach because it allows me to enjoy a special connection with the river’s energy. (view from the left)
I am grateful for the River Rouge because it adds even more beauty to an already fabulous landscape. And it’s great for canoeing.
THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!
Today, in Day 10 of her GRATITUDE CHALLENGE, Nicole Cody has a short guided meditation for you, to really allow you to connect to the Abundance and Blessings of our Universe. So follow the link and don’t miss a thing!